Instability and Other Issues
I seem to be averaging one post a month lately. That really should change. To catch you up, dear readers, my surgery went well, and I am recovering nicely. No word on the tumors yet, and whether they were benign or not, but I am managing to mostly not worry about them. They are out of my body, which means they are no longer harmful to me. I am grappling with the realization that my childbearing days are over, and although I am not sure I ever wanted to have another child, it's hard to reconcile myself to the fact that I couldn't even if I wanted to. Perhaps that seems silly, but I've been told it's a common way to feel after a hysterectomy--especially for someone so young. My emotions regarding all this are more than the loss of my womanhood, although that is certainly a large part. This is my second bout with cancer. I have been incredibly lucky both times in that it has been caught very early. But I can't help worrying what might have happened. Maybe it's me...